HOPE. We all have faith in something, & yet it is not until all hope is lost that we even realize we had it. You see, as a child, I knew I was tremendously blessed by God. After all, He gave me the perfect mom & dad, ten sisters, two obnoxious brothers, the greatest friends on the planet, the best Godmothers in the world, a church family that I could call home, & even a puppy! My life was perfect! I was raised in a family where having a relationship with God was most essential. What could be better?
On October 27, 2011, my perfect world was abruptly interrupted. I was a senior in high school making plans for the next phase of my life – college. On what seemed like another ordinary day, ended horrifically when my dad passed away. For several years I battled with some mental and spiritual confusion. I could not understand why God would take my dad away from me so soon, & especially during a time when I needed him the most. My perfect world was now flawed. All hope was lost.
I had very little desire to go away to school, but I still went. Slowly but surely, God began to send down His peace to comfort me as I transitioned through life without my dad. I traveled with a gospel choir, where I was encouraged to draw close to God. It was during that time that I adopted my life verse (Hebrews 10:23), & met the love of my life, Bobby Seagears. God was beginning to restore my hope, but not like my childhood hope. Rather, it was a hope in something greater than me. More than just simple expectations, hope is a feeling of trust. I knew I needed to place my trust in “someone” beyond man, & I prayed my way toward a supernatural intervention. The moment I allowed God into my life as Savior & Lord, was the moment my life changed for the better.
I have been married for seven months now, & have moved to a completely different state. I joined a new church, became involved in new ministries, & had to open up to meet new people & make new friends. This has been the greatest challenge I have ever faced. Encountering change has never really been my strong point. I was willing to come, because of the commitment I made to God and Bobby, but still there was hesitation. I was scared, feeling like I left behind my whole life. Each day I stayed in God’s Word and prayed for Him to help me, & each day God answered my prayer. This was so much easier said than done. Most days consisted of crying spells, dramatic mood swings, & feelings of sadness. Nonetheless, with encouragement & support of my husband, I persevered. God has blessed me with a job in the church. Through serving in the young adult ministry, I have developed new friendships that will last the rest of my life. Joining the choir is the outlet God has given me to worship Him through my most challenging days. It’s what keeps me going! How did I find hope in new things? God’s Word gives me hope. He promised He would never forsake me or place a load on me that was too heavy to carry. If God restored my joy after losing my dad, I knew & believed that there was nothing too hard for Him to do in my life. I still face challenges even to this day, but according to God’s track record, I will be alright. His Word reminds me to hold unwaveringly to the hope that I confess, for the One who made the promise is faithful! (Hebrews 10:23)
-Written by Hilari Seagears